Earlier this week marked the 5th anniversary of my high school graduation. Those 5 years have flown by and a lot has happened to me in that span of time. With this milestone in life has come a lot of reflection on these past few years.
Honestly, it’s pretty easy to look at where I’m at in life and not feel happy with where I’m at. Most of the people I graduated high school with are now graduating from college. Some now have husbands and wives and kids while beginning their journey into their dream job. Meanwhile, I’ve still got 2 full years of college left, haven’t had so much as a single date, and I have no plans to stay at my current job forever.
All said, what I want for my life still feels so far away.
I often fall into this mindset of discontent. I’m terrible about wanting something but not wanting to wait or work for it. In this case, I feel like I’m moving so slowly, that everyone else is so far ahead of me. There’s been so many times I’ve felt like I’m squandering my peak years all for nothing.
Fighting this mindset has not been easy. It has become a recurring battle I have to face nearly every day. To help silence this mindset, I’ve found myself using this phrase incredibly often:
I may not be where I want to be, but I’m not where I used to be.
Reminding myself of that truth helps tremendously. Thanks to the existence of Facebook, I have an excellent way to see how much I’ve grown over the past 5 years. Just seeing my thoughts then compared to now reassures me that I’m not who I used to be.
Sure, I’m still a single college student in a very temporary job. Life hasn’t gone quiet as I dreamed. But that’s okay. All these various victories and defeats, the highs and the lows, I’ve experienced have shaped me into who I am.